While there is no escaping the fact that i have gone backwards in terms of my medical issues over the last two months and am pretty certain i will eventually need further surgery, there is not a day goes by that I don’t thank my lucky stars that i am the person i always wanted to be. I am also very thankful for all the help I receive from medical practitioners and the various staff involved in my care.
Tuesday was a perfect example of how well i am looked after. I had considered getting help from local medical services as i seemed to be deteriorating day by day and the pain levels increasing but had decided that it would probably be pointless as in New Zealand much like Australia, the chances of finding anyone with experience of treating transgender patients was minimal. Then on my walk on Monday evening when i had to turn back after just 200 metres because the pain was so intense i had to reconsider. I decided to see how i felt after a night’s sleep and make a decision then. Tuesday came and i was no better even after a reasonably good night’s sleep so Denise called the local medical centre who immediately gave me an appointment some 30 minutes later. I saw a lady called Ann who listened to my issues and in a very logical thorough way went about discounting certain possibilities, examined me and took a urine sample to test. It came back clear so gave me a script for some antibiotic ointment which seems to have in the short term done the trick. Ann was just gorgeous with me and i left with a lovely hug which may seem trivial to some but is a huge thing to me.
Ann is just a perfect example of how well i am cared for, the likelihood of her ever seeing me again is minimal but she gave me lots of time and listened to my story. As usual when it comes to the part about my parents not telling me about being born intersex i became upset and apologised, she was very patient and caring with me. And then there’s Denise, always there for me, worrying about me when I’m not well and always there to suggest a plan of action. Denise, you are my everything, my rock, my soulmate and my best friend. You have done so much for me, given up so much for me and expect nothing in return. I love you so much xxx